*sigh* what a week this is, and probably going to be too. I spent the past week WORKING. My stats hmwk is now only FCP and Permutations, so that's not to bad, but I also have to read 150 pages by tomorrow. *sigh* this is going to be a long night (I look like Charlie Brown with war and piece). Well atleeast I can do all this work in the comfort of my own room now that my dad let me borrow his spare laptop (so i can work on my stats hmwk in my room instead of his room). Here's how the week went.

Monday of last week: Well I found out the other girl's real name (Meerna), and then homeward bound. I got myself a beating for my betraying thoughts of the previous entry from Sakura. I was even surprised that she still loved me after what I said about Meerna, and nothing about her. I guess that's what love is, somebody who is willing to forgive you despite such a brutal assault on one's heart. I will always love you Sakura, and you will always be in my heart. I realized now that Meerna was probably just a physical attraction, and nothing more.

Tuesday: Nothing much except a wonderful talk with Sakura

Wednesday: Start of my bad luck. Nothing bad during the day, just what happened at night. A blackout occurs in only 1 part of the town MY community, plus my stats analysis got erased, and I didn't print anything out yet! Agh! Eat, go to sleep.

Thursday: Morning, work on stats project, work work work, not done! Go to class, report that I'm not ready because of big freaking blackout! Partner in the same state as I am, but he wasn't affected by the Blackout! I come home, and finish up my work in 4 hrs. Get yelled at by dad and mom for working too hard.

Friday: Goes to class, do interview, forget to say some stuff (BAD), didnt do any of the hmwk from the week because I was working on the project. Go to robotics club, play with the BOE bot, and we created a very good obstacle avoidance program! Yippee! Come home, have a nice talk with Sakura, have a talk with dad about using his laptop, got the laptop, and yippee! Stayed up until 4:00AM waiting for Sakura, and reading Inu Yasha fanfics. I saved a really nice one for you Sakura.

Saturday: Get my new glasses, wow i can see much better now, and they're so light that i sometimes think im not wearing my glasses. Do some of the stats homework, and kind of play the day away. Watch Robotech from 10:20PM to 11:20PM, sign off, and went to sleep.

Today: Wake up, turn on comp, surf the web, talk to jero, talk to reeve, find out I missed Sakura last night by a mere 3 minutes, and start banging my head on the desk for my eagerness to catch some sleep that i missed on friday. Go work on my english hmwk, make half the dumplings for the week, kind of get in the way of dad, dad's pissed that mom and i got in the way. i get out of the way and try to avoid a fight. we eat, and then mom asks me when im going to straford. i say on the 8th,and then a doc appointment on 7, my bday on the 6, and robot practise run on the 9th. dad gets upset that i mentioned robots because he hates it when i am involved in it. well im actually the organiser and manager of the club and the competition, along with the cooperation of my old HS (I thank you so much Serena for loaning your school and remembering me after 3 years absence). The situation kind of reminds me of the Movie October Sky, but instead of Rockets VS Dad's disapproval, it's Robotics VS Dad's disapproval. *sigh* I love my robots, they're like my children, as I watch my creations grow from measly cars with bumper activated avoidance, to the Wright Flyer with Legs that I'm currently working on. I really don't get any approval of extra-curriculars from my dad although he has already forced me from the Science Olympics, and the Science Fair. How do I pursue something if all I have knowledge of the concepts but no experience of how to combine them? I wish you were here for mye Sakura, Dad really hurt me there. Mom tried to help, but she goes about it through arguing, and that is something I don't want either. Well after a cooling off period of an hour, the family took a trip to BIG Loblaws (Ya, the family outing is a trip to the supermarket). We bought more frivilous stuff, like another CUTE Lamb, and another one of those Star Wars Lego Mini sets. I just love those Mini sets, they're fun to play with, and I can play with them anywhere. We came home, ate a snack, and I finished my english hmwk. That's all for today, time to eat dinner, and go to reading my novel for tomorrow.

Yay, I got a tag board too ^_^! Anyways, the last week was just HELL, and now I feel like Rick Hunter more than Maxmillian Jenius or Roy Fokker like I usually am. *sigh* life sucks AGAIN! Well to start off, the day I got back to school, I was swamped with more hmwk than when I left for March Break. What gives?! If you're going to front load the semester's school work for the 1st half of the semester, front load it on our March Break! >: I spent Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday working on my English essay, making it as perfect as I possibly could. Then after that, I have to go straight to my stats hmwk that I neglected for 3 days ^^;; o.O it's as high as Mt. Logan! T.T Oh well, I have 4 days to work on it right? Nope, I have my term project for that course to do first. I guess I'll do my hmwk after I do my project. *English novels yelling* YOU GOT A CONTENT QUIZ ON MONDAY! YOU STILL HAVE 1 CHAPTER TO READ! *sigh* more work?! *yawn* I can't stay up until 12:30AM again to do that. That's school life, and I'll continually do this for many more days to come (I hope I can endure it though).

Now for the problem stated at the beginning, which will hurt some, and damage my own reputability to commit to a single task and person. During the Sunday night of last week, I had a dream (Now you're thinking this goes in the wrong blog right? WRONG!). This dream was so weird that it had symbols of my past, and present day lives. The past symbols would be having an assembly in my elementary school, and me having to sit on the floor of the gym (grade 8s could sit on benches). I don't remember what the assembly was about, but I was maneuvering my way around those wooden trains that I played with when I was 4 years old and had Thomas the Tank engine, and James (Red train engine). I looked towards the gym entrance, and I saw one of my friends and said "Hi" to her like I usually do. However, what shocked me most was that the glasses she was wearing. They were the thick Black glasses that I had seen on one of my classmates in my stats class. I sat down in the middle of the wooden train network, and suddenly watched a tunnel cave in on my favourite Tank Engine Thomas." I also find myself falling, through grey fog, and see those thick black glasses only, and they were getting bigger. I seemd to be afraid of it, yet I was also wanting to help them. It had a fierce, and yearning feelings in it.

THE DILEMMA THAT BOTHERS ME!
I'm in a relationship with SakuraSaito! However, that relationship seems to have stilted during the past week, as she didn't show up very often as I had expected her to. I revived it though on Thursday and Friday. Thursday with a very romantic Inu Yasha video, and Friday with an nice cyber walk through a cyber park. I also know that this relationship may die because now I'm not so sure I can wait 7 years for her. Also the disapproval of both parents, and the fact that seeing each other once won't be enough for our parents. In addition I don't think I want to be having a secret relationship anymore. Also on Saturday the family had a with my sister on how she feels about the guy chasing her give the appearance of liking her, but not the substance of it. I don't want to be doing that. I'm now feeling that I've been doing this though, and I am in doubt of how I feel about her.

I'm getting attracted to Mirya everyday, and I don't really want to, but I can't help but take note everyday of her beautiful red-auburn hair, and it's new style everyday.

Some background info on my acquaintance with the red-haired girl in thick black glasses. She was in my chem class last semester. What I took note of was her name at the beginning of the semester (too bad I can't spell it). Her name sounds awfully close to or exactly like "Mirya" which is also the name of Maxmillian Jenius' wife. Secondly, I took note for her amazing performance in chemistry. It could and probably did match mine's if not better. I didn't take any particular interest in her until the exam of chem, when I first saw her without those thick black glasses. I REALLY was stunned by her beauty, and how those glasses masked it. Well I forgot about it because we're at exams, and my brain took control of my life for those couple of days. Well when the 2nd semester started, I still didn't take any particular interest in her even though we were in the same stats class. I kept having computer problems with mice on every single computer in the lab, except for the one that was next to her and her friend so the line would be Mirya, Sana, and John pretty much. Phew, no awkward situations or anything to hinder my performance. Here's the problem now, I've noticed that on most fridays she comes to school looking much prettier than the rest of the week, and the one time she dresssed up REALLY NICE for no apparent reason (that's what she said to her friends), she also didn't have her glasses, and that was before the march break. Talk about lasting impression, to see a beautiful goddess before you head out for march break isolation. Anyways, that's as far as I've said. We've only exchanged hies, byes, sorries (me saying sorry for blocking her way with my chair and sameers), and told each other our group projects, her friends are doing drunk driving now i think (probably didn't find the IIHS site my partner found). My partner and I are trying to find a cost and safety correlation with cars.

Probably the closest we've gotten is an exchange of a glance at each other on Friday. She let Aida sit at her computer, have Sana stay where she is, and she sat in the empty computer that usually houses my partner next to me. My partner discussing with me how we should go about the project. I think she was either day-dreaming or seeing if I took note of her looking in my direction. I took note, and looked back with my usual smile I have to everyone *No, you were suppose to exchange your Linus VanPelt smile, not the Charlie Brown one*. I'm not sure what happened afterwards, as she came back to reality with her friends, and I continued with my discussion on my project.

Now watch both worlds INTERNET and REAL LIFE collide and destroy me.

Yay, I got a tag board too ^_^! Anyways, the last week was just HELL, and now I feel like Rick Hunter more than Maxmillian Jenius or Roy Fokker like I usually am. *sigh* life sucks AGAIN! Well to start off, the day I got back to school, I was swamped with more hmwk than when I left for March Break. What gives?! If you're going to front load the semester's school work for the 1st half of the semester, front load it on our March Break! >: I spent Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday working on my English essay, making it as perfect as I possibly could. Then after that, I have to go straight to my stats hmwk that I neglected for 3 days ^^;; o.O it's as high as Mt. Logan! T.T Oh well, I have 4 days to work on it right? Nope, I have my term project for that course to do first. I guess I'll do my hmwk after I do my project. *English novels yelling* YOU GOT A CONTENT QUIZ ON MONDAY! YOU STILL HAVE 1 CHAPTER TO READ! *sigh* more work?! *yawn* I can't stay up until 12:30AM again to do that. That's school life, and I'll continually do this for many more days to come (I hope I can endure it though).

Now for the problem stated at the beginning, which will hurt some, and damage my own reputability to commit to a single task and person. During the Sunday night of last week, I had a dream (Now you're thinking this goes in the wrong blog right? WRONG!). This dream was so weird that it had symbols of my past, and present day lives. The past symbols would be having an assembly in my elementary school, and me having to sit on the floor of the gym (grade 8s could sit on benches). I don't remember what the assembly was about, but I was maneuvering my way around those wooden trains that I played with when I was 4 years old and had Thomas the Tank engine, and James (Red train engine). I looked towards the gym entrance, and I saw one of my friends and said "Hi" to her like I usually do. However, what shocked me most was that the glasses she was wearing. They were the thick Black glasses that I had seen on one of my classmates in my stats class. I sat down in the middle of the wooden train network, and suddenly watched a tunnel cave in on my favourite Tank Engine Thomas." I also find myself falling, through grey fog, and see those thick black glasses only, and they were getting bigger. I seemd to be afraid of it, yet I was also wanting to help them. It had a fierce, and yearning feelings in it.

THE DILEMMA THAT BOTHERS ME!
I'm in a relationship with SakuraSaito! However, that relationship seems to have stilted during the past week, as she didn't show up very often as I had expected her to. I revived it though on Thursday and Friday. Thursday with a very romantic Inu Yasha video, and Friday with an nice cyber walk through a cyber park. I also know that this relationship may die because now I'm not so sure I can wait 7 years for her. Also the disapproval of both parents, and the fact that seeing each other once won't be enough for our parents. In addition I don't think I want to be having a secret relationship anymore. Also on Saturday the family had a with my sister on how she feels about the guy chasing her give the appearance of liking her, but not the substance of it. I don't want to be doing that. I'm now feeling that I've been doing this though, and I am in doubt of how I feel about her.

I'm getting attracted to Mirya everyday, and I don't really want to, but I can't help but take note everyday of her beautiful red-auburn hair, and it's new style everyday.

Some background info on my acquaintance with the red-haired girl in thick black glasses. She was in my chem class last semester. What I took note of was her name at the beginning of the semester (too bad I can't spell it). Her name sounds awfully close to or exactly like "Mirya" which is also the name of Maxmillian Jenius' wife. Secondly, I took note for her amazing performance in chemistry. It could and probably did match mine's if not better. I didn't take any particular interest in her until the exam of chem, when I first saw her without those thick black glasses. I REALLY was stunned by her beauty, and how those glasses masked it. Well I forgot about it because we're at exams, and my brain took control of my life for those couple of days. Well when the 2nd semester started, I still didn't take any particular interest in her even though we were in the same stats class. I kept having computer problems with mice on every single computer in the lab, except for the one that was next to her and her friend so the line would be Mirya, Sana, and John pretty much. Phew, no awkward situations or anything to hinder my performance. Here's the problem now, I've noticed that on most fridays she comes to school looking much prettier than the rest of the week, and the one time she dresssed up REALLY NICE for no apparent reason (that's what she said to her friends), she also didn't have her glasses, and that was before the march break. Talk about lasting impression, to see a beautiful goddess before you head out for march break isolation. Anyways, that's as far as I've said. We've only exchanged hies, byes, sorries (me saying sorry for blocking her way with my chair and sameers), and told each other our group projects, her friends are doing drunk driving now i think (probably didn't find the IIHS site my partner found). My partner and I are trying to find a cost and safety correlation with cars.

Probably the closest we've gotten is an exchange of a glance at each other on Friday. She let Aida sit at her computer, have Sana stay where she is, and she sat in the empty computer that usually houses my partner next to me. My partner discussing with me how we should go about the project. I think she was either day-dreaming or seeing if I took note of her looking in my direction. I took note, and looked back with my usual smile I have to everyone *No, you were suppose to exchange your Linus VanPelt smile, not the Charlie Brown one*. I'm not sure what happened afterwards, as she came back to reality with her friends, and I continued with my discussion on my project.

Now watch both worlds INTERNET and REAL LIFE collide and destroy

LAST DAY OF MARCH BREAK! Yay! Okay, I sound entirely crazy. Well it turns out that this march break is probably the first holiday I went through without feeling that it was a waste. I accomplished, progressing through some games, I also finished my English Homework well in advance of the end so I could practically play the last 4 days. My greatest achievement I think though was that I could finish more than 50% of my aircraft before the break is over. I can finish the rest in small parts during the year as well. Another achievement was that I completed more than 50% of my VCD conversions. Also I've got a reduction in meds so I can be more aware of how I feel. My energy spectrum was from full of energy to entirely exhausted before, now it's from full energy to little tired to entirely exhausted. In addition to all this, the last 2 days of the break had temps WAY above normal. I could go outside without needing a coat, and the weather was clear without a cloud in site. Other than that i think the break was pretty well spent from the previous years where I was either recovering from an operation, or I completely wasted it on Video/PC games. I feel happy. This happiness also includes my increasing love to that certain someone in my life. Also if possible, during the upcoming months I'll see if I can organise a trip to the US for a certain event in December. I hope it'll be easier for you (Sakura) to travel interstate instead of internation. If not, I'll still have a thrill at the event, although not as full-filling as seeing you. That's the end of this week's chronicle, and the beginning of another for the next entry.

Argh! Why does it seem the world hates me again?! First off, I had a terrible sleep last night, it was because of some terrible dream that I don't remember anymore. 2nd, I left my alarm clock off, and woke up 30min later than I wanted. That's ok though because I meant to have an hour to do whatever i wanted in the morning, so instead of an hour, I got 30min. I went to my follow-up appointment, and everything was fine, I have my meds reduced. Yippee! I went to eat lunch, and that was fine too. On the ride back home, my mom asked me if I was still chatting with strangers. *thinking: Get off my back!* *Said: Stop looking into the past.* in a complaining tone. After that, my mom took me to apply for my licence *short interruption: Yesterday, I went to apply for my drivers licence, and they asked if I had any chronic, or medical conditions. I said I had Lupus. So they told me to fill out a medical form for them to approve.* I had it filled out by my doctors today, and we gave it back to them. They said they need the medical office of the government to approve it and I have to wait for their approval. WHAT THE HELL! IF I SAID NO, I WOULDN'T BE WAITING LIKE THIS! So here's what I'm mad about. If I said I had no health problems (which is a lie), I would have done my driver tests. Since I told the truth, and was a cooperative citizen, I have to wait for either a rejection or an approval to drive. Is the government trying to encourage fraud or something! I'm sorry, but when I was young, I was a compulsive liar. Now that I've learned that you only get punished for lying, I tell the truth all the time. God damn it! I really hate red-taped buried governments. Then it just reminded me of the quiz from the previous entry. I guess the saying is true once again in my life.

"Nice guys finish last."

Wow long time since I posted, anyways it's MARCH BREAK! Wahoo! 10 days to do what? T.T work on my english essay, work on term presentation for stats, and work on my math textbook i've been neglecting. Boo, why do teachers have to jam hmwk when on holidays. Anyways, a couple of acquisitions I received so far is Mechwarrior 3, and Earth 2150 for PC. ya I know they're old games, but they're still great to play! for PSX, I'm stil stuck on that mario mission of jumping up blue blocks and then having to kill nine ball. I did get Wipout 3 ^_________^ happy! Besides the homework, I'm going to be doing some construction of my aircraft, and on a set of robotic chicken legs. If they both work, I'll combine them to make guess what? I functioning Macross Gerwalk/guardian aircraft! Also viewing other blogs I came across this quiz. I knew I was...

Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz