Note: This entry is REALLY long since it's from my LJ and is actually 2 entries. One is my resolution and goals for my life. The other is my "year in review"

Belated Happy New year, and enjoy the read.

I know I'm already a week behind, but oh well, I have 51 weeks to improve myself (Wow it now seems incredibly small).

First stating what needs to be done first:

#01: Procrastinate less.

#02: Play less video/computer games.

#03: Balance the amount of anime/TV I watch with academics OR reduce the amount I watch

If I can do those 3 things, then I can:

#04: Improve my health and fitness

#05: Improve my academics

#06: Have time for hobbies

#07: Improve my social capabilities (if I can catch up on trends that is -_-)

Now miscellaneous stuff that I'd like to accomplish:

#07: Improve my physical agility, speed, and strength given that Agility I value more than strength

This can probably be accomplished along with improving health and fitness ^^

#08: I'd like to start building my robot walker now that I have all the parts.

This has been on hold for a long time, and I still think I need to do more design sketches

#09: Attempt to start a Robotics club at University

Assuming I have decent grades to handle 2nd year AND manage a club

#10: Learn to be independent

In the works

#11: Get a girlfriend

I don't need to get one this year, but by the end of my Bachelor's as I've observed from my sister that the number of people you interact with afterwards greatly dives. Plus I feel bad admitting that I'm hunting too >_<

Things I SHOULDN'T DO, but I want to:

#12: Build weapons and explosives

This is just a crazy fun mindless task I want to do since I don't feel it fun infront of the screen on CS or Half-Life, or any other FPS

FAR OUT in the distant future:

Why would I have "Revolution?" in my title? Well in a sense I wish to change the way people think about healing. About medication, specifically, and about the fragility of humans. BASICALLY just like how Penicillin revolutionized healing in the WW2, I hope to do that with the SUPER-BUG illnesses. People will find out, eventually when I achieve it, or when I die from it.

Year in Review

All right I've been pushing this off for a few days now. That's because last time I tried doing this, the computer froze and restarted my computer. Thus I lost a huge entry. Grrrr. Anyways, I'll list by what's up with each month, and then probably later this month I'll edit again as to my goals.

January: First party out late night on new year's, stayed up until 4, nobody got drunk (because alcohol wasn't as hard as this year). Exams, assignments, I knew more than the physics teacher XD Calc teacher was ill, T_T we didn't learn anti-derivatives and trig derivatives. Lost all my strength of last year

February: New semester, new acquaintances, but OLD teachers ^^, I have a friend in Comp Sci, uncle's bad habit of rejecting veg when he was little has got him a really bad case of colon problems. Now all he could eat for most of the year was baby mush food!

March: Test cramming I recall, I've lost my Godly powers for Comp Sci, but gained stability in Discrete, International Business is fun in that it's easy, and the teacher doesn't make it TOO boring. Forgotten once.

April: Only 1 midterm, and I passed it YIPPEE! Comp sci was fun for a while, building destructive tanks ^^ KAMIKAZE ALL THE WAY! Lake Ontario is VERY COLD (D-boat water practises)! Still weak, never recovered from Winter break fattening.

May: SUPER BUSY! First charity event that I went to, lots of fun, I would have bidded on the golf clubs too if I knew how to golf back then XD Anime North <-- Much less stores than CNAnime, and much more cosplayers than CNAnime XD *remembers the 20 some odd Inu Yashas pile together*. Should have educated myself about YAMA though! Sushi with friends, met some new people too again. Prom, yay I didn't miss it this time, had to depend on others for a ride, which had me nervous for a while. But it turned out well. Everyone was very pretty. Assignments galore, and got a crush.

June: Buried feelings of a crush into the ground because I'm happy the way we're doing already. If things happen, it'll happen on its own, but right now I'm content with current circumstances. Exams, I avoided ALL of Discrete's traps and pitfalls, except for the big nuking exam. D-boat competition was great! Commencement was good, friends were happy as if it were like convocation or a wedding. I played along in the happiness, but I myself was not that happy. Glad that it's done and I'm out, but not overjoyed like my friends. Forgotten twice.

July: Whistler for a week, HK for 3 weeks! SHOP! That's all I need to do for this year, and be with relatives. Lots of fun, lots to eat, and I avoided tons of seafood traps and stuff. Meet British relatives for the first time! Yaay, lots of fun, bought some stuff for friends and shopped for myself. Good economy, means higher prices -_- HK is a much better place to shop when they're desparate for iddy biddy bits of cash.

August: I'm back! FREAKING FREEZING HERE! Okay, actually I readapted to my native country's weather while I was there. So coming back to Canada, I was freezing all the time. A few meetings here and there, fun end of year meet, and FROSH. Didn't attend any FROSH events, just academic stuff. Getting hyped up, about learning, getting ready for a really quick BLAST right into studying and fast paced learning. Learned the layout of which buildings to go to, and the independence of taking the 60 bus to York XD

Sept: GOOOOOOO! Runs a bit, looks behind him 2 weeks later, and falls flat on face ahead of everyone because everyone is still reviewing! Go to YAMA, and set it as home base for spare time. Much cheaper and more fun then killing loonies and quarters at Campus Cove. Wasted $100 on food in a week, NEED to save money. Fencing money, learning, and ...

Oct: KABOOM! In front of me, not under me, as I was fine for the first set of tests, the second set of tests (midterms) I wasn't too good with since I burned out in brain energy on the first set. Yay, YAMA people know me a bit.

Nov: MORE TESTS! CRAMMING! That's what this month is. 2 days of relief and that was it. Did worse this month than previous months because I'm burned out last set, so how do I do better if I haven't recovered -_- Starts learning the ways of YAMA people, villains, heros, and more ^^ Flying Fencing Floors! Friction is a wonderful thing sometimes. ... is over, as I had expected and probably consciously wanted because it was bothersome. Outz a lot on fridays.

Dec: Exams, they're easier than the midterms and tests! That's because I have time to study, and not get bogged down with studying for other things. Christmas break was great! Had fun with friends ^^ Accomplished more this break too ^^ Relatives that I haven't seen in ages because family luck has been bad this year too.

Happy new year everyone ^^

I had a dream last night, but the dream is much more vivid, and much more easily remembered than most of my vivid dreams. In addition certain symbols and events occured in their context, but I had not even read about what context they should be in until after the dream. So I am concluding that I'm getting a warning of my ill-behaviour.

Anyways I'll start off in chronological order since that's how I discovered things.

Dreamworld:
I'm in the office using the computer, and the prez brings what looks like a very large and elaborate gold necklace. They say it's the chain of Sodom, and that whoever wears will turn evil, and go crazy. Apparently, everyone takes the prez seriously and doesn't attempt wearing it. I kind of laughing off that the curse exists, put it on myself. The chain itself is kite shaped (so imagine a kite), with a cross across its axis (so connect opposite points of a kite), and where the 2 axis meet is a brace/circle for the person to clamp around their neck. After putting it on, I hear what seems to be the yelling of a mob flooding into my ears, and then my head. For a second, I can't stand it, but then I feel that I have changed, not with more angst, but I'm more serious about actually destroying the world, and I feel I have the ability and resources to do just that. However, one of my uni friends also hears the voices, and is begging (and screaming) for them to stop. I go to her, hold her, and quietly repeat "Concentrate on my voice." She stops begging and screaming, but in addition she has lost herself. Her eyes are glazed over, and seems to be a body without a soul, and it just stays with me now. Suddenly, there's a change of place, time (later), and happenings. I find that I'm about to rape her, and she is not resisting. I notice that she's not resisting, she still has the glazed look in her eyes and she really doesn't have a soul within her to allow her to do anything. I realize first that I'm doing 2 wrong things. First was initially that I was about to physically do something, but what was more painful was that I had already killed a person and I am a truly a bad person. The voices return, and everything around me disappears to darkness. I wake up after this, thought about it for an hour, and then actually woke up for the day.

Reality:
Later on (as in research on the web before I update this), I find out that the city of Sodom in the bible is one of the cities of great evil that God destroyed. However, this story is often used against homosexuality for its line "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so that we can have sex with them" <-- supposedly there is connotation of rape here too. After reading this, I'm shocked to find similarity in the evil nature I felt I possessed in the dream, and the evil nature portrayed in the Story of Sodom. I've never read the story, since I only got up to the listings of people's descendants in Genesis and then stopped reading the bible. So reading a quick synopsis of the story, and seeing it's relation to the dream earlier seems more than just a coincidence to me. Anyways, on to other topics of conversation besides the ever so wonderful visions. I guess I can post the Obligatory christmas list. I won't make a journal cut/link for people since I'm SURE people are too lazy to click. From parents:
Nothing
From relatives:
$20Sweater

Merry Christmas ^^

Oi, everytime I blog, it's because either lots of stuff happened, and I get a very long entry, or I have something to rant about and still make a very long entry. It's been a good 3 weeks since I blogged, and nothing really bad has happened since then (or if there was, I got over it quickly).
Anyways, first off WHY I haven't been blogging that much is that every university student has to STUDY! Not playing games, not partying, JUST STUDY! That's 1 whole week explained yaay ^^

The week after I've been playing about, relaxing for the extra week of break that I have. After the last exam (which was a breezer), went to a party with YAMA people. It was lots of fun, with the exception of staying awake the whole night. The following Wednesday I trekked back up to my hometown, and being in the sleepy state I'm in came 30 min late. I still made it on time to meet some of my HS friends, and we went around sitting in on classes, and talking to about what was well learned, and what wasn't. Went back home, and took some well needed sleep. Went back to YAMA much later than I expected to, to work on the computer. The floppy drive on that computer is screwy and couldn't read the bootdisk properly. So I copied the contents of the floppy (after several retries) to the C drive of the computer (plus the C drive was set to being a system drive) so that instead of booting from a bad floppy drive, it's booting from a good core C drive. However, after being able to reinstall windows, the computer now always thinks that the C drive is an emergency boot disk. Oh well, so you get the extra ramdrive components to the computer. It's okay as long as the computer boots in windows. I need to find the videocard drivers, and the internet settings to fix the computer up more because the computer right now is on stand-alone status, and the computer is on 640x480 in 16bit colour.

While I was fixing the computer, Dad called me up to tell me he's at the apartment. I told him it's fine, and I'll be coming to the apartment tonight. When I did come home (11:00PM) there was nobody there, and I was puzzled why he wasn't around. I find out later when I do come home that my dad uses this place to do basic cleaning and eating (since he works very hard and to late hours too now).

Friday was sort of a blah day. I woke up very late, got to the meeting later than I said, was pinned in the head by a shooting star (ouch). And played games with YAMA people until it was over.

The weekend was good, as I played with my little brother for most of the weekend. Dad bought me a laser printer to use (yaaay no more smudging printouts), Dad was equivocating (A LOT TOO) about whether to buy the P93 Sony camera for $330, or wait for the S500 Canon to drop from it's fairly okay $450 price. I like the Canon S500, but the price is quite hefty. Dad was thinking of buying the P93, but if we bought a proper sized memory stick with it, it would still round out to the same price as the S500. So, Dad says to wait until boxing day for us to fight our way through the crowds for a marked down S500 ^^

Monday I went out with my friends Downtown, and at first NaCH3C00H (that's his username on xanga) was complaining at outside being freezing when we walked 10 minutes to the bus terminal. We then took the bus to the subway, and the subway down to Eatons centre to shop. It was already kind of late when we got there, and most of the time we just browsed around. We went through the whole shop, and there wasn't much to look at. Everything was grossly marked up for the desparate shoppers. Browsed around, and then we went to NaCH3C00H rez to pick up what? A NAMETAG! Well tainted_white, and I wanted to see how his rez looked like (nice place). After that we walked halfway through all of Downtown to find someone at Chestnut rez. We didn't find the place, and we were frozen from walking everywhere. Eventually we went back up, and we didn't have time now to go to p-mall so we just went back up to our local Loblaws, bought some food, and went back to cook. After the cooking, it was pretty late, but we still hung out together for a while.

Tuesday was pretty idle, as I slept in, made m brother food, did some calc, started a conversion, played the piano, and did chores. It was mostly a relaxing day.

Now I have to finish converting a video in impossible time, and get to another gathering (with more of my HS friends this time) that is in 3 hours.