Okay, it's a very very very very very very long time since I actually posted here. Well that's probably because I was updating my AA site instead of this site =P Did the 2nd physics test earlier this month, and did a calculus test too. My Physics mark is now an 88%, that's nothing new, I've had that average before, I need to break what I call the 90 barrier. I've only gotten to the 90 barrier (that's because it was Computer Science), but I haven't been pasted it!

Oh well, had a great party last week, since I don't have the opportunity to do so on Halloween. I can't because I have SATs November 1st =_= I HAD to schedule for that day, and not later or earlier. Oh well, another dissappointment to deal with. Well all is normal, I still do my hmwk diligently, I still talk, and chat with friends, and I'm still well involved in school (which explains my lack of online interaction outside of my RL friends). That's all for now, I'm not dead or anything, I'm just a bit busy with the environment around me =D

Okay, so it's suppose to be election day, and there's lots of hype as to what has been foreseen for many months. Conservatives are taking the boot. So it's another bad day today, well it's because of many things. For starters, we got our physics test back, and my knowledge section is just terrible. I made so many stupid calculation errors that it cost me 30% of my knowledge grade. Also, my student ID is all wrong. The picture is the same as it is every year, but the homeroom is wrong this year because I changed my class before the semester started. Well that's really all that's bad about school. Well I helped Andre Thompson out with his molecular Biology lab, as we're old friends, and he's a good guy, just that he's forgetful. I still have his disk that contains all of his molecules except for polypeptide, and he forgot to pick it up. Oh well, I'll give it to him tomorrow in class. I go to pick up the photos, and remember that I had dropped off an old set of film there along with the one from Tuesday. Well I pick both up, and as I look at the pictures I took on the PA day, I see how terrible I am at photography. I can't take a picture of people in action. I have the wrong angles, and I have obstacles always in the way when I take pictures, and it just makes everything look bad. I can't do this anymore. The pictures I will take will only be staged, objects or scenics (I still do well in this section). But people on John's candid camera will seize to exist.

Onee-chan (Elder sister) comes home which is nice, and she's always getting prettier when she comes home. Well I found out today that somebody she loved, was just playing with her feelings. This is the first time she actually fell in love, and the first time she's been hurt so badly. She's depressed about this (which can explain the change from pastel colours, to all dark colour clothing) and she asked me what's wrong with her. Just as I am I point out something that we can try to fix. Our parents brought us up in the way that we protect ourselves. This makes us more distant from other people, and others really do not know our true character. It's like what Onee-chan's friend said to her, and applies to me as well. "You've created a wall around you." Well Onee-chan did create more than a wall. She created a fortification so great, that no regular guy would attempt to reach into her heart. You have to be heavenly good, or Satanically evil to attempt to see peek into her heart. Unfortunately this time, it was an extremely evil guy that delved into her heart, and damaged it greatly. Onee-chan gave me a few pointers as what NOT to do when in pursuit of a girl.

I probably should make more clear around school about the girl I like. Not in the way of vocal expression, but merely how I interact with other girls besides that one person. I won't avoid or anything, but I shouldn't be so yielding to those that aren't the one I'm after. The girl I seek I see she is honest (but reserved), supportive and positive (but sometimes at the cost of her own postive thinking), forgiving but she makes sure the lessons are learned, understanding of the complex but she too needs to be understood too, and she is direct, but not unsociable. The most important quality in our family and something that I am willing to place into her is trust. Whether I can gain her trust is another story for her to tell. Besides, "we'll see" the conclusion to this, and it turning out with me failing is okay. We risk, we learn, we grow, and we pass on. It is the way life was meant to be.

*cough cough* =( I have a cold. My first one in more than a year. Anyways, what happened in the past few 2 weeks? Well Friday was sooo much fun, despite the rain =P catch me online, and I'll tell you how much fun, but as always, such joys never last, or are clouded by bad news that comes after it. There wasn't a lot that happend until my doc's appointment on the Wednesday. They told me my bone density was down, and I should increase the intake of calcium. ='( I have signs of Osteoperosis and I'm only 18 years old ='( Well that was bad news. Take the Thursday Calculus test, and I think I forgot to invert the graph when I was drawing it =( There goes my chances for a perfect score.

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Friday was suuper cold, and I was half frozen from riding my bicycle to school. Then right before Calculus starts, some Grade 9 kid coughs on me! Show some respect to your elders, and did anybody teach you to cough away from people, not at people! Grrr *cough cough* I know where I got this cold from. Well friday also had no calculus class as our teacher was at her twin sister's wedding. Hmmm, it seems a lot of people are getting married at this time of year. Well after school (that means 1:00PM and later), I rented Bionicle Mask of Light for my little brother, and I rented Gasaraki for myself =D Rode back to school to start the first Robotics Club meeting of the year. Wow, a turnover of 35 people. Well that's to be expected, whether 20% of them stay with the club to the end of the year is a different matter^^;; I missed the school's anime club meeting though because my friend just HAD to designate Fridays for Anime club. Grrr, she knows that Fridays is ALWAYS Robotics, and it's been like that for the past 3 years! Oh well, they came by Robotics because my meeting wasn't just a sign up day, it was also to brainstorm ideas on what to do during the year. They came, they said they didn't need to sign the sheet because I knew who my friends were, and their e-mail addresses. True, and then the supervisor asks a friendly question of what type of robots they like. So Maria answers "Destructive stuff?" Haha, yah that was a laugh since we all like those kind of things =P Well I turn back to organise a bit, have one of the executives take control of fund raising, the other take control of money, and I coordinate =D Well when I turn around, I already see that one of my friends has disappeared, and the President of Anime club (my friend), starts sneaking away. She even crouched down and started crawling away, while at the same time dragging Maria away. =( Is the club that scary? Oh well, that's ok I guess.

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Saturday I spent sleeping, eating, and finishing any biology and playing with limits for Calculus. I also watched Mask of Light with my brother, since I had a slight interest in the movie too. The movie has very nice graphics I can say =D Not photorealistic, but it is pretty realistic for LEGO =D I found out today was a beautiful day, and that Maria saw a really nice sunset on her way back from the Mall, and my dad and brother were outside at around the same time to get a view and feel of the good weather. It was even clear too. =( No beautiful sun for me, but I did see the stars outside at around 2:00AM. Since I sletp 4hrs during the day, I could stay up that late.

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Sunday was the same, except with physics, and I had enough energy to go for a walk. I seem to cough less outside, then I do inside. Also when I did go outside it was around dusk, so I got to see a really nice view of the sun beaming through some of the clouds covering the sky. I notice that the best scenes and times in our lives are never caught on film. If you actively try to catch them, they don't become the best. Since you are anticipating that something will happen, and not enjoying the moment. Soo, I will finish the film in my camera, develop that film, and stop actively searching for a good shot, and look more for a good time. =D

MONDAY *COUGH COUGH CHOKE*!! There's this form of evaluation that gives out BIG quizzes, or small tests in our school. We either call it a Quest, or a testlet. Anyways, everyone was under the impression that we could do the evaluation in half a period. When we enter the class, it somehow magically transforms into a full fledged 8 page test! What the hell, and I'm still coughing and sick. Well it also seems that a good number of other people including the physics teacher are all sick too (divine retribution?). At the end of the test, I am not sure how I got to Calculus, but I know I had a very very big headache after the test. @_@ I'm glad Calculus is just a continuation of limits, and how do you find them if they exist or not -_- Biology is always fun, and today was just note taking on the cell membrane and the various forms of transport between the membrane. Talk to a few friends after class, and go home to eat and watch another 2 eps of Chobits. I don't have lots of time to watch anime. And I can't stay up late to watch it. I need to sleeeep and rest and recover from this cold *cough cough* That's all for now, *cough cough* time to rest up and recover.