Busy busy
Last week has been quite busy, as I shirked fencing last monday due to insomia the night before. Studied my ass off for the chem test, and all the events of the previous test occured except for the missing calculator. Then studied for Bio the rest of the week. Rescheduled an appt that was planned for the 17th, to a few weeks later. It's going to be quite busy the next 2 months with studying and doctor appointments. Although I've been going out a bit too lately. Went out to exchange defective N64 controller, and bought extras and more games yay! Saturday, went to do a fencing demo at 9:45AM to 10:30AM. Fenced for about 10 min of that time, but I won ^^ 7--6! Chatted with a friend, and then went to Finch station to meet up with my YAMA friends. We ventured to p-mall, and I haven't been there in a VERY long time. So I bought some burning supplies, prices of models hasn't changed, bought more games, and some anime ^^ (which seems to be getting cheaper). Had fun chatting with friends, and we tested out the list of songs for "Name that tune" event that's going to happen at an upcoming con. Went home, studied, and then fell asleep instantly in bed.

That's what has happened recently. Now to things I plan/need/want to do.

I have 2 coupons that give you a $4.00 discount on movie tickets at any Cineplex Odeon theatre that expire at the end of the month! I want to watch Constantine, or perhaps Onc bak, but going to a movie alone seems ... well ... very pathetic ... I could give them away, but when there are movies I want to see it kind of looks like a lost opportunity. I will head back to p-mall to get games that I asked for but they didn't have on hand. Also I'm going to badger one of the stores for a remote for my MD player. Despite it's uselessness now without a computer for the music. All the MDs that I have currently will be useful (especially the game music ones). Anyways, academically I need Bs! 1 C+ from Econ though I think is manageable, but I don't want to risk it. In addition there's chem. So freaking scared of chem grade. If it's a low C then I'm doomed T_T Sometimes I wish I wasn't an average B student, and I could afford a low grade. Atleast these are only half courses, and weigh half as much as full courses, BUT 2 Cs is still equal to a full course C >_< So I shall continue studying hard.

Note: This entry is REALLY long since it's from my LJ and is actually 2 entries. One is my resolution and goals for my life. The other is my "year in review"

Belated Happy New year, and enjoy the read.

I know I'm already a week behind, but oh well, I have 51 weeks to improve myself (Wow it now seems incredibly small).

First stating what needs to be done first:

#01: Procrastinate less.

#02: Play less video/computer games.

#03: Balance the amount of anime/TV I watch with academics OR reduce the amount I watch

If I can do those 3 things, then I can:

#04: Improve my health and fitness

#05: Improve my academics

#06: Have time for hobbies

#07: Improve my social capabilities (if I can catch up on trends that is -_-)

Now miscellaneous stuff that I'd like to accomplish:

#07: Improve my physical agility, speed, and strength given that Agility I value more than strength

This can probably be accomplished along with improving health and fitness ^^

#08: I'd like to start building my robot walker now that I have all the parts.

This has been on hold for a long time, and I still think I need to do more design sketches

#09: Attempt to start a Robotics club at University

Assuming I have decent grades to handle 2nd year AND manage a club

#10: Learn to be independent

In the works

#11: Get a girlfriend

I don't need to get one this year, but by the end of my Bachelor's as I've observed from my sister that the number of people you interact with afterwards greatly dives. Plus I feel bad admitting that I'm hunting too >_<

Things I SHOULDN'T DO, but I want to:

#12: Build weapons and explosives

This is just a crazy fun mindless task I want to do since I don't feel it fun infront of the screen on CS or Half-Life, or any other FPS

FAR OUT in the distant future:

Why would I have "Revolution?" in my title? Well in a sense I wish to change the way people think about healing. About medication, specifically, and about the fragility of humans. BASICALLY just like how Penicillin revolutionized healing in the WW2, I hope to do that with the SUPER-BUG illnesses. People will find out, eventually when I achieve it, or when I die from it.

Year in Review

All right I've been pushing this off for a few days now. That's because last time I tried doing this, the computer froze and restarted my computer. Thus I lost a huge entry. Grrrr. Anyways, I'll list by what's up with each month, and then probably later this month I'll edit again as to my goals.

January: First party out late night on new year's, stayed up until 4, nobody got drunk (because alcohol wasn't as hard as this year). Exams, assignments, I knew more than the physics teacher XD Calc teacher was ill, T_T we didn't learn anti-derivatives and trig derivatives. Lost all my strength of last year

February: New semester, new acquaintances, but OLD teachers ^^, I have a friend in Comp Sci, uncle's bad habit of rejecting veg when he was little has got him a really bad case of colon problems. Now all he could eat for most of the year was baby mush food!

March: Test cramming I recall, I've lost my Godly powers for Comp Sci, but gained stability in Discrete, International Business is fun in that it's easy, and the teacher doesn't make it TOO boring. Forgotten once.

April: Only 1 midterm, and I passed it YIPPEE! Comp sci was fun for a while, building destructive tanks ^^ KAMIKAZE ALL THE WAY! Lake Ontario is VERY COLD (D-boat water practises)! Still weak, never recovered from Winter break fattening.

May: SUPER BUSY! First charity event that I went to, lots of fun, I would have bidded on the golf clubs too if I knew how to golf back then XD Anime North <-- Much less stores than CNAnime, and much more cosplayers than CNAnime XD *remembers the 20 some odd Inu Yashas pile together*. Should have educated myself about YAMA though! Sushi with friends, met some new people too again. Prom, yay I didn't miss it this time, had to depend on others for a ride, which had me nervous for a while. But it turned out well. Everyone was very pretty. Assignments galore, and got a crush.

June: Buried feelings of a crush into the ground because I'm happy the way we're doing already. If things happen, it'll happen on its own, but right now I'm content with current circumstances. Exams, I avoided ALL of Discrete's traps and pitfalls, except for the big nuking exam. D-boat competition was great! Commencement was good, friends were happy as if it were like convocation or a wedding. I played along in the happiness, but I myself was not that happy. Glad that it's done and I'm out, but not overjoyed like my friends. Forgotten twice.

July: Whistler for a week, HK for 3 weeks! SHOP! That's all I need to do for this year, and be with relatives. Lots of fun, lots to eat, and I avoided tons of seafood traps and stuff. Meet British relatives for the first time! Yaay, lots of fun, bought some stuff for friends and shopped for myself. Good economy, means higher prices -_- HK is a much better place to shop when they're desparate for iddy biddy bits of cash.

August: I'm back! FREAKING FREEZING HERE! Okay, actually I readapted to my native country's weather while I was there. So coming back to Canada, I was freezing all the time. A few meetings here and there, fun end of year meet, and FROSH. Didn't attend any FROSH events, just academic stuff. Getting hyped up, about learning, getting ready for a really quick BLAST right into studying and fast paced learning. Learned the layout of which buildings to go to, and the independence of taking the 60 bus to York XD

Sept: GOOOOOOO! Runs a bit, looks behind him 2 weeks later, and falls flat on face ahead of everyone because everyone is still reviewing! Go to YAMA, and set it as home base for spare time. Much cheaper and more fun then killing loonies and quarters at Campus Cove. Wasted $100 on food in a week, NEED to save money. Fencing money, learning, and ...

Oct: KABOOM! In front of me, not under me, as I was fine for the first set of tests, the second set of tests (midterms) I wasn't too good with since I burned out in brain energy on the first set. Yay, YAMA people know me a bit.

Nov: MORE TESTS! CRAMMING! That's what this month is. 2 days of relief and that was it. Did worse this month than previous months because I'm burned out last set, so how do I do better if I haven't recovered -_- Starts learning the ways of YAMA people, villains, heros, and more ^^ Flying Fencing Floors! Friction is a wonderful thing sometimes. ... is over, as I had expected and probably consciously wanted because it was bothersome. Outz a lot on fridays.

Dec: Exams, they're easier than the midterms and tests! That's because I have time to study, and not get bogged down with studying for other things. Christmas break was great! Had fun with friends ^^ Accomplished more this break too ^^ Relatives that I haven't seen in ages because family luck has been bad this year too.

Happy new year everyone ^^

I had a dream last night, but the dream is much more vivid, and much more easily remembered than most of my vivid dreams. In addition certain symbols and events occured in their context, but I had not even read about what context they should be in until after the dream. So I am concluding that I'm getting a warning of my ill-behaviour.

Anyways I'll start off in chronological order since that's how I discovered things.

Dreamworld:
I'm in the office using the computer, and the prez brings what looks like a very large and elaborate gold necklace. They say it's the chain of Sodom, and that whoever wears will turn evil, and go crazy. Apparently, everyone takes the prez seriously and doesn't attempt wearing it. I kind of laughing off that the curse exists, put it on myself. The chain itself is kite shaped (so imagine a kite), with a cross across its axis (so connect opposite points of a kite), and where the 2 axis meet is a brace/circle for the person to clamp around their neck. After putting it on, I hear what seems to be the yelling of a mob flooding into my ears, and then my head. For a second, I can't stand it, but then I feel that I have changed, not with more angst, but I'm more serious about actually destroying the world, and I feel I have the ability and resources to do just that. However, one of my uni friends also hears the voices, and is begging (and screaming) for them to stop. I go to her, hold her, and quietly repeat "Concentrate on my voice." She stops begging and screaming, but in addition she has lost herself. Her eyes are glazed over, and seems to be a body without a soul, and it just stays with me now. Suddenly, there's a change of place, time (later), and happenings. I find that I'm about to rape her, and she is not resisting. I notice that she's not resisting, she still has the glazed look in her eyes and she really doesn't have a soul within her to allow her to do anything. I realize first that I'm doing 2 wrong things. First was initially that I was about to physically do something, but what was more painful was that I had already killed a person and I am a truly a bad person. The voices return, and everything around me disappears to darkness. I wake up after this, thought about it for an hour, and then actually woke up for the day.

Reality:
Later on (as in research on the web before I update this), I find out that the city of Sodom in the bible is one of the cities of great evil that God destroyed. However, this story is often used against homosexuality for its line "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so that we can have sex with them" <-- supposedly there is connotation of rape here too. After reading this, I'm shocked to find similarity in the evil nature I felt I possessed in the dream, and the evil nature portrayed in the Story of Sodom. I've never read the story, since I only got up to the listings of people's descendants in Genesis and then stopped reading the bible. So reading a quick synopsis of the story, and seeing it's relation to the dream earlier seems more than just a coincidence to me. Anyways, on to other topics of conversation besides the ever so wonderful visions. I guess I can post the Obligatory christmas list. I won't make a journal cut/link for people since I'm SURE people are too lazy to click. From parents:
Nothing
From relatives:
$20Sweater

Merry Christmas ^^