Ookay, another entry in less than 5 hrs. I'm typing this because something really unsual, and good (or bad) has happened.

My crush from last year, and still a very close friend of mine's Liz, called me up about 2hrs after my last entry. She was asking for help in chemistry. She's in university, and so it would have been more logical for her to know more on chemistry than me. Well she called me up and was asking if either she could come over or I come over so that I could help her out. Being at home, and bringing somebody in on the fly to "disturb the family privacy" is not a good thing, so I said I would come by to help her out at around 7:30PM (an hour and 30 minutes after the phone call). I woke my mom up to tell her to make dinner so I can go out and be on time, and it turns out that everyone delayed 30 minutes >=T So I had to call Liz back up again and delay 30 minutes. Then when it was time for me to go, Dad told me to cancel everything because it seems weird, and that he has to drive my sister back tonight. So I called Liz up AGAIN, and told her I couldn't make it because of a change in circumstances at home. Her voice sounded so sad after I told her, and I said I was available tomorrow afternoon (my heart becomes sliced here now after hearing the sadness in her voice). After that, Dad and Mom talked to me about it being too fast, and too much on the fly (Everything that goes on in this house MUST be planned before executed). Also it was pretty easy for them to guess that its possible that she likes me because supposedly, she should have better knowledge in the field of chemistry than me, or she can ask her dad (who is a chemical engineer) for help. I also kind of got that inclination, but it won't be confirmed, and now old feelings are coming back to me. It's something I'm considering just as importantly as my future in Pharmacy or Computer Science. Any crush or inclination of my liking another girl in high school currently seems to pale in comparison to what I've just experienced right now, and what seems very very close to something that may grow. Hehe I follow my own definition of love.

A crush is a seed of admiration, love is the plant that grows from it.

I guess it's also like the flower I would give to a girl. A potted tulip, it grows, it dies and leaves a bulb at the end, it needs a dormancy period of coldness, and then it grows back to its former beauty in May (month I am born in).

Wow, 2 weeks since I was here ^^;; Well that was because I was busy. Let's see, I barely passed 2 of my tests (as in just above 50%), and I think I did very badly on the midterm exam *cries* Okay well I'm better now that its not all crammed at me in about a week.

In robotics, we did pretty well for a high school, and we weren't last place when going against university teams and individuals with lots of money at fire-fighting. We rounded out 7th out of 12 competitors. For sumo robots, WE'RE #1 WE'RE #1! Although you won't see that because they DQed the robot that beat 1st place defender TWICE. Why aren't we 1st place? Because we were suppose to use the OTHER one that they didn't call. Hey we listened to you, why the heck do we get disqualifed for listening properly?! Also partner forgot to change batteries in the deciding round against 1st place defender, and we lost that round. So on the record, we rounded out 4th out of 50 teams. Now we're just going to play a few internal competitions between the members of the club, and well all the girls stuck together, and when the room was being split I wasn't paying attention and I was put in the group with all the girls. Well I'm the only guy going to help them out, since all the other guys (80% of the club) are arrogant and think that the girls know nothing (x_X say that again and both Marias will pummel you through the concrete wall). There are 4 teams, 2 teams are competiting against each other in a remote control challenge, and another 2 teams are playing with LEGO Mindstorm sets. The Lego Mindstorms teams seems to have turned into a Guys VS Girls challenge too. The 2 teams for LEGO Mindstorms need the sets and the other person with a set has got his team and I am providing the set for the girls, so I guess its appropriate that I go along with the ladies ^^

Well that's school, boring isn't it now that most of the exams and outside competitions are over. In the social sector of my life, it just gets as crazy as school. Well right after the exams atleast. I haven't seen Penguin that often in school, as she doesn't stick around Ana and Hello Kitty that much anymore. Hello Kitty I see is very very busy and after those tests she's traumatized by it and has gone to studying like crazy. =_= why does her other courses have to be project intensive instead of hmwk intensive ^^;; Yes I'd much prefer the Mount CALCULUS and PHYSICS hmwk questions over a super huge group project on physics or english. This is because with homework questions you can work on them in sub sections and attack the huge thing from different points and positions and places. With a project you have to coordinate with others (which is very hard to do if they're stubborn), and if they don't do their part, you're screwed entirely.

Hello Kitty is determined to stay in Calculus as she says she's floating above failing and wants to get back to a decent grade.

*John's thought* I'm floating in the high 70s, so I shouldn't say anything or I'll make her cry. Hey she's trying hard which is good ^_^*end of John's thought*

She also had her braces removed last week, and I was the 2nd person to see that ^_^ The first person that saw her was the teacher asking her why she skipped class, and all she needed to do was smile to show the reason ^_^ She's prettier for sure, although since it was before the midterm, I haven't seen her smile like that for quite a while.

After the midterm, you could say life was suppose to slow down. It did hmwk wise, it got more intense socially. Joe being ever determined to have Ana as a friend (he's acting like he's trying to court her too) continues to fail in his attempts. Well she's having fun messing with his mind, but she still feels queezy around Joe, and we get much more work done when he's not around =P It actually got to a point that Joe was grovelling ROFL. Yes I'm evil in that I got a piccie of that =P *Ana flashes her eye lashes and says * "You have to help me in chem and calculus!" *gets dragged by the arm to the library* @_@ I can't say no to her when she does blinks with those eye lashes. Well I still carry my own chem binder as a lead weight and reference for me to help her out. The course is still lots of PHUN and she's helpful too for Biology, so I guess it's even ^_^

Went to watch Gothika on Friday instead of Matrix: Revolutions (dang why is Larrat's parents so late all the time). Well it was suppose to be scary, but it wasn't, and they tried to do a copy of Sadako with a white girl =@ She's no where near as scary as Sadako, AND the movie was not scary, perhaps startling at times, but not scary. PLUS the audience was crap, there's a bunch of girls at the front of the theatre screaming at every scene of that girl, there's a noisy swearer at the back, and guys at the front yelling back at her. =_= that was a very bad audience but it was funny to watch the comic relief by the audience ^^;; Went to Mousey's place to play Poker, and I got beginner's luck for 1 game until Tin Tin came by and she grabbed all the luck (which costed Larrat to go into debt by about $3). Ros and Kay came too, and well I didn't know Kay was extremely ticklish. Well her face of terror when we were about to tickle her is priceless. Ros held her down and she told us to poke. Then Larrat and I were like " Poke or not poke?" Well got 1 pic of mousey, and Ros trying to tickle Kay. that was fun, and then we all had to go home =D

Now is the weekend and all I have to do is a bunch of physics questions and finish that Biology challenge XD I love Biology especially since most of this course is Biochemsitry XDXD I'm reconsidering whether I should go into Pharmacy or Computer Science. The Computer Science industry is saturated, and Pharmacy looks pretty good since my Bio mark is 92, and my Chem mark is 86 (would be 92 if I didn't slack off). So I have 6 weeks to decide my future ^^;;

Short term futurewise, I wonder what Maria is planning for the upcoming day off from school the coming Friday. Well I think everyone (meaning RL friends) should try and help her out a bit. She doesn't like to do everything by herself, as she may end up coordinating and not having any fun at all =T so help out guys and we can all have fun together =D

Hmmm, I think I got a sign from somebody up there, trying to direct me where to go. Last night after going to sleep at 0100 I had a very quick nightmare to wake me up. Basically a bumble bee lands on me while riding my bike back home, and I dust it away. It comes back and trys to sting my right arm. It stings the clothing around my arm, and not skin, but its stinger is still trying to find my skin. I wake up before when I feel the stinger touching my skin. That's nothing to be concerned about really, but it was successful in getting me out of my slumber real quick.

Here's where it becomes unusual, I found that my head was under the blanket, and I saw a light from above the blanket. I uncovered the blanket from my head and wonder why the light isn't bright like a flashlight. I suppose you can call me crazy from this point onward, but what I saw was not light eminating from a flashlight or anything. It was light just floating in my room. What I saw were outlines of Penguin's MSN AV flying out of my house with a beaver looking outline behind it. I also saw this very large outline of a Hello Kitty on the ceiling just floating there (very big, about the size of my bed). Then a Miffy bunny starts swirling and floating around with the Hello Kitty. I try to focus my eyes because I'm not wearing my glasses, and then the Hello Kitty fades away, and the bunny starts to make that trail pattern that you see when you wave you fingers infront of a CRT monitor. Eventually the bunny disappears too, and that was the end of that vision.

I go back to sleep wondering whether I interpretted that properly. I wake up the next morning (today) to eat breakfast, and take my drivers written test. I passed with 3 errors @_@ another 3 errors and I'd be toast. Dad takes me to dollar store to go on a cheap, and fun shopping spree, and takes me out to lunch (since driving all the way home would have me eat a very very late lunch). While on our way back after lunch, our car is stopped by traffic lights at the intersection next to Markville Mall on McCowan with a Red Honda Civic infront of us. Crossing the street, I notice that IT'S HELLO KITTY and her mom crossing the street! Well I didn't open the window or anything to yell "Hi" because I bet those two are going to go to Markville for their own little shopping spree. Hehe Hello Kitty looked pretty excited when running across the road with her mom ^^

Now I'm home and studying Calculus, Physics and doing a Biology lab instead of going to visit my sister downtown with my family. That's all for now, I just had to put everything above down before I forget it in an ocean of optimization and momentum problems.

ow ow ow, shoulders are killing me @_@ That mountain of Calculus and Physics is really heavy. Plus going to the bank to depost money walking 3km takes a long time (and is tough on the shoulders since I carry my backpack as well). D-boat is fun, although I didn't workout to the point of PAIN, just to the point of stiffness. Isolated a penguin at school for around 3 minutes, but failed to ask her out as the hallways are too noisy. Atleast I know that we both hate the architect of our crumby school for making the hallways bottleneck at the point of greatest conjestion =@ *sigh* she's very cute, and very attractive, unfortunately she's not very open like a hello kitty in the area.

The Hello kitty almost completely opens up those opportunities. She even talked about semi-formal and prom to me commenting that she doubts the quality of these dances (well its based on one of her friends going to prom, and my good opinion is based on every single one of my friends and classmates who went to prom last year) , and that she would like to only see other dress up but not herself. However, she believes from her friends that they'll all not be worth the pay into it. I accidentally asked if she'd like to go to semi-formal after her little rant (I didn't say "with me" but more in the manner of whether she was even interested in going) @_@ My talking rolls too much without stopping to think of the consequences of saying

"Do you want to go to semi-formal?" <--That was exactly what I said to the hello kitty.

On another note, that friend (let's call him Joe) I accidentally introduced to another of my friends (let's call her Ana) continues his pursuit to get Ana to like him. ROFL its fun to watch them fight like an old married couple, and now he's becoming a bit forward in his actions (e.g. he put his arm around her shoulder today) ROFL at Ana's reaction (duck and run behind me asking for me to be a barrier) *gets the evil eyes from both* ^^;; not my fault that friends from my different circles of my life are tangent to the point where they met (charity fundraiser)^^;;

Calculus doesn't look that big anymore, its just 16 optimisation problems. Physics is the real problem still as I don't have a lot of time to finish that (4 days to do about 80 questions). Biology lab due monday, but it looks very much like a physics formal lab. So if I follow that, I should be done that in 4 hrs.

Also today in biology class it's sooo freaky. Maria looks almost exactly like Freya today. Wearing mostly black, and her hair with 2 pigtails behind and banks over her forehead. Anyone could mistake her Freya if she had the console plug covers at her ears, and if her hair was long, and blond instead of shoulder length and black. Either way she still looked quite cute.

Off of reality now, I had a very vivid (well not vivid anymore since it's been about a week now), about the penguin. It's posted in the dreams section of my blog. Well off to play with calculus problems, and study for drivers test, and do physics and biology. I'll see y'all later ^_^

Why is John going super nuts by blogging when he has a test in 12hrs!!! Ok just a quick update, blah blah blah, mount calculus and physics rising ever higher, bio mark is exploded through the roof ^^ Maria likes me as a friend only (that's good), tests, exams in 2 weeks, started studying, SATs done, eww the marks, but then I didn't study for those. Lots of fun, going through life as normal being the Nova I am I push myself too far all the time and go Supernova (good or bad depends on how far I go).

That's all really, downloading Inu Yasha(so many), Scryed (so cool), and RK (so slow). Playing Mechwarrior 2 for my PS1, and got a new scanner all for myself =P I can scan my negatives now instead of the prints.

BTW if Roman stops by, or if anybody sees him, tell him that I currently only have PS1 games ranging from the Crash series, Gran Turismo 1 and 2, 2 Army men games, and a few other odds and ends. I WANT THAT MACROSS PLUS BOOTLEG ROMAN!!! Hahaha otherwise I'll go get a legit copy off of ebay =P